listen, here's the deal. i am not a crier. yet, as i was typing this last comment on the thing in the link below [specifically the last two paragraphs], i started crying. not just silent tears. sobbing, trying to catch my breath, tears streaming down my face. i can't say i really know why. i can't decide if it's because i'm frustrated with christians who think it's okay to say whatever and not think about how it's perceived, or if it's because i've realized that the lord has placed a calling on my life, or if it's because i'm tired and slightly emotional. i don't know.

i guess my point in posting this is to ask what you guys think.

so, thoughts? your feed back is welcomed and encouraged.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?ref=profile&id=1122630439#/posted.php?id=158100213&share_id=241268644767&comments=1#s241268644767

This week I learned...

1. Sometimes glasses aren't enough.
2. I love cooking, but only with other people.
3. I love my car. A whole lot.
4. I do not love my computer. At all. I need a new one.
5. My dad is probably my favorite person ever. His sense of humor is amazing.
6. Karaoke at a random Mexican restaurant is tons of fun.
7. Worship feeds me. Whether or not it's with people doesn't matter so much.
8. I really don't care about school at all. Which is not okay.
9. I should not have taken Italian.
10. I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life. But if I could find a job that would allow me to travel, be outside, and play with kids, I would be totally happy and content.

so school...

...is stupid. i don't want to do my work. but i have to.
right now, emily and i are watching top chef or something. appropriate since i'm working on an assignment for anthropology of eating.
and tonight is wesley, so that's good.
an ember from a fire drifted under my glasses and burnt my eye...what are the odds?

joyful

guess who's back?
so, several things in the last few days have really opened my eyes to the joy of the lord.

first. i went shopping with nicki yesterday. we had never planned on going to barnes and nobles, but it's hard to resist a bookstore. so we went in. and i came out with more books than i'd planned on buying. which, for the record, was none. when i got home, i started to read one of them: the five love languages, singles edition. the book isn't just about romantic or dating relationships, it's about all relationships. i've learned that there are several different ways to love people, and each person is unique in the way that they perceive and receive love best. and i got so excited to figure out what the best way to love each of my family members is and the best way to love each of my friends. and it reminded me that there's someone who loves me more than i could ever comprehend, which just filled me with joy. i'm so happy that i found this book, because the lord is in a season of teaching me about romatic love, and most importantly, his love. and i am so excited!

second: i have a new friend! and one night, we were talking via text message, and he just asked me if we could hang out and if he could hear my testimony. nobody, besides my discipler, lindsey, has ever really asked to hear it except in group settings. it's like he wants to hear it so that he can get to know me. i feel so blessed that the lord has sent me this friend who desires to know me, but to also know about me and jesus. it's oh so happy.

third: my computer is slow and takes a long time to turn on and off and load itunes, so listening to my music on my computer in the morning while i get ready [which is a new development in and of itself] is out of the question, because it just takes so darn long. so i'm forced to listen to my cds. i've recently taken a liking to matt wertz, and one of the only cds that has his music on it is a cd that my friend walter made me last semester. the first two songs are matt wertz, the next two are shawn macdonald and then the fifth one is by leeland, i think. the songs are as follows: red meets blue [which makes me think of jesus], i'm sorry mary [which makes me think of jesus a little too], take my hand [which i absolutely love so much], gravity, and sound of melodies. sound of melodies is one of my new favorites. so, while i'm getting ready, i have to be getting ready, i can't just stop and not be changing or brushing my teeth. i cut things close in an effort to get as much sleep as possible. so, even though i get to hear the song, i don't really get to enjoy it while i'm getting ready. well, i've also started listening to music when i shower. i get more of a chance to enjoy the song because i'm not rushing around getting ready or getting distracted by my reflection [i know.] and today, i had an epiphany:
solitary worship is awesome. i've always known that i connect with the lord through music, and i get a lot out of corporate worship, but i'm coming to realize that it's not corporate worship that i get a lot out of, it's just worship. but until now, i didn't really feel the freedom or desire to worship alone. and now, because of my worship alone, i feel more free in my worship at wesley.

i love joy and i love jesus.

This week I learned...

1. Re-apply sunscreen. Very important lesson
2. Sunburn on the lips is NO fun.
3. I'm super jealous of all my friends who grew up on an island.
4. Long drives aren't so long if you have good company and good music.
5. Swimming is fun. Night swimming is SUPER fun.
6. I have the best friends in the world. [Already knew this, but, I just had to re-state it]
7. Some people are unintentionally forceful about certain things, and sometimes, it makes me super frustrated.
8. Monday night is good for some things and bad for other things.
9. Sometimes, boys just go shirtless ALL day.
10. I miss Theresa Garcia. A lot.
BONUS:
11. The Lord may have prepared me for something that I didn't think would happen for a long time. But I'm not sure.
12. After about two games of Zombie in a dark church, it's a lot less creepy/scary. And it's very fun to scare people with Holly. :)

This week I learned...

1. I am not good at staying up all night.
2. My car can't handle long drives. I've said I'll drive it till it falls apart...well...I think that day is right around the corner.
3. If I keep dwelling on things that someone has done that have made me angry, there's a good chance that I'll keep being angry at that person, and we'll never grow as friends. Holly taught me that.
4. I'm super impatient when it comes to my love life/future husband.
5. God is awesome. I'm awesome. I WILL change the world.
6. God has made us each unique. And we're each made to interact with certain people.
7. I love the oldies station. A lot.
8. I miss camp. A lot.
9. God is sneaky and teaches me things I need to know when I need to know them.
10. I really want to hang out with my Athens family outside of Athens. Somewhere like...Europe.

Friends...

It has been quite awhile. I've been busy. Since I last posted I have:
1. Taken finals
2. Gone to Scotland
3. Moved
4. Started classes again.

summer classes=lame. why do i do this to myself?